when i close my eyes its not the same anymore. i see a blur of images, non of which i remember seeing in the daytime. it feels there's a thousand people around me, and their combined murmuring drives me to open my eyes. but there's nobody around me. the disharmony in my brains feels like im screaming out my lungs, but i know im not even opening my mouth. when i can't take it anymore i open my eyes. it becomes silent. the silence is uncomfortable, but at least its quiet for a while.